it would be nice if everyone just shut the fuck up.
thanks :-P

so today after school I went to the boys' lacrosse game with zoe, lex, other kids, etc. first we went to the deli and then we walked to TW. the game was so good. the other team, 'CHA' or whatever, was really obnoxious: they kept hitting our boys with their sticks and trying to trip them. but whuteva, cause WE WON. andy scored a point and he was so happy and it was so cute! when we gave all of the boys hugs at the end they were so sweaty and gross, and andy's armpit was all up in my mouth and it was so disgusting.
it was so exciting when they won, though. we were screaming and jumping and really school-spirit-esque. it was so cute and happy.

endoscopies are the pitts. I'm internally bleeding, I'm sure, because it feels like I'm being stabbed. with a really sharp knife. it's fantastic. also, I went to a pediatric hospital because I'm not 16 yet, and this lady came over to me and asked me if I wanted to color or something. I almost said yes, but then shelster gave me a look of shame and I was too embarrassed. then these other ladies made me get a pregnancy test because I am of "child-bearing age." that's weird to think about. and I discovered that laughing gas is the greatest invention known to human-kind. even though I don't do drugs, being on laughing gas made me want to.

I'm mad that I'm missing the film fest, last year it was cool beans to see all of the weird things that people made. I remember dpo's was funny just because it was dylan and andy and weird. and I remember that every time dylan got on the screen, everyone started cheering for him and it was cute.

I'm actually quite excited for tomorrow night. even if the dance sucks, it'll be fun to see everyone dressed up & all that jazz. I've discovered that that 70's show is the funniest show ever created.

school is garbage. like, really, I don't understand the point of it at all.

today after school, I talked to bubbie for like...10293842983 hours about revolution, and she got so hype (in a good way) and we were so hype together. it was teh cutez.

sometimes, like right now, I am so tired that I forget what I'm supposed to be doing. like, while I was writing this, I forgot what I was doing. and this makes no sense. and I'm really tired. and it's hot as balls in my room. goodnight!

run days are the pitts.

so I'm watching the episode will and grace where they're going to have sex so that grace can get pregs with will's baby. it's the beginning, before they decide to test-tube that shit, and watching them try to makeout is the funniest shit ever, but I feel like it'd be easier to have sex with your gay best friend than your straight boyfriend.

but anyway, wheats' sweet sixteen was fab and quite fun. it's weird like...being around sam and stuff when we used to hang out all of the time and we haven't hung out in fo'evs. that shit's crazy.

what happened to all those cool iPod commercials? like who decided to take them away and put fuckin' bono in them instead? because that person should be stabbed to death.

ok, so pretending to be sick never really works for me.
yesterday I asked my mom to stay home because I felt really sick, and she said "ahahaha, no."
so I went to school, and then I became actually sick, and had to leave school early.
and now I have a fever of like..23948239847 and I am not enjoying this.
karma is a bitch.

I think I am psycotic.
I only have 1/2 of a page written of my 1000 word weinblatt essay, and that is not ok. I have a problem that consists of watching old the OC and the L word episodes on my iPod.
I probably won't go to school tomorrow, and I'll finish my essay at like...2 in the morning.

132 messages of OC commentary from raina:

the rainenator: p.s. marissa cooper is having an illicit affair with one of her teachers
the rainenator: his name? RYAN ATWOOD
the rainenator: i kind of crack myself up, you know?
the rainenator: serioulsly who are all of these new people??
the rainenator: I HAVE NO IDEA WHO THIS BITCH IS
the rainenator: OR THIS GUY
the rainenator: hi, who the HELL are you?
the rainenator: where the HELL is my chiffon?
the rainenator: this dude has a tattoo
the rainenator: he could kick ryan's ass
the rainenator: blah blah blah blah
the rainenator: i have no idea who these people are
the rainenator: "what goes around, comes around"
the rainenator: OH THAT WAS SO THREATENING
the rainenator: are they driving through the DESERT?
the rainenator: WHAT IS THIS
the rainenator: WHY DOES THIS SHOW STILL EXIST
the rainenator: i hate this tory line
the rainenator: i have no idea who the fuck this guy is
the rainenator: or why i should care about himn
the rainenator: GET OFF THE SCREEN, SANDY
the rainenator: oh of course they would blame marissa, she shoots people!
the rainenator: oooh sethy
the rainenator: i love seth
the rainenator: what a cutie
the rainenator: really, the only reason why i watch this show anymore
the rainenator: i have no idea what's going on in this show
the rainenator: WHAT THE FUCK
the rainenator: i think ryan and sadie are going to make out
the rainenator: or make love
the rainenator: and make marissa jump off of a cliff
the rainenator: JUST LIKE JOHNNY
the rainenator: oooh surrepetitious
the rainenator: good word
the rainenator: and i don't know if i spelled that right
the rainenator: dude julie is on the prowl
the rainenator: LOOK AT THAT SEDUCTIVE GLARE
the rainenator: and taylor can speak japanese?
the rainenator: ...
the rainenator: ah, korean
the rainenator: haha
the rainenator: I AUTOMATICALLY FAIL
the rainenator: oh snaps, taylor!
the rainenator: oh noes
the rainenator: THIS IS BAD
the rainenator: HAHAHAHA
the rainenator: haha now she isn't talking to ryan
the rainenator: what a dumb bitch
the rainenator: god i hate this show
the rainenator: heeey it's sadie and ryan
the rainenator: and they're going to play strip poker
the rainenator: i don't understand why all of these girls are into him
the rainenator: they must have a backwards oedipus complex
the rainenator: otherwise known as the electra complex
the rainenator: GOD I'M BRILLIANT
the rainenator: haha, loser sleeps on the floor
the rainenator: ryan was just afraid that he would be too old to get it up
the rainenator: haha this sadie person needs to go away
the rainenator: does seth still get high?
the rainenator: i hope so, man
the rainenator: high seth is pretty hilarious
the rainenator: haha WHAT IN GOD'S NAME WAS HE DOING
the rainenator: jeez, taylor is annoying
the rainenator: HAHA OH SUMMER
the rainenator: i really like that seth shirtr is wearing
the rainenator: or even, that shirt seth is wearing
the rainenator: please don't ask me how that happened
the rainenator: omg it's ony 9:35?
the rainenator: wow
the rainenator: this book needs to end
the rainenator: this television show, that is
the rainenator: I AM SO TIRED
the rainenator: oooh the cops
the rainenator: they can go away
the rainenator: haha oh my god
the rainenator: what kind of filming is this?
the rainenator: what crappy techniques, is this supposed to look intense and dramatic like those crime shows?
the rainenator: OH MAN
the rainenator: ah yes, the caution signs were symbolic of the breakdown of marissa's life
the rainenator: *wilmans*
the rainenator: this episoe is kind of boring
the rainenator: wwho is uncle jack?
the rainenator: OH YEAH, johnny's dad
the rainenator: haha
the rainenator: i fail at paying attention to this speioesde
the rainenator: fuck you, spelling
the rainenator: HAHA WHAT THE FUCK IS THIS BITCH DOING
the rainenator: WHAAAAT
the rainenator: OMG
the rainenator: ok, that was RIDICULOUS
the rainenator: WHAT THE FUCK
the rainenator: WHO DOES SHIT LIKE THAT>?????FDOSPFJDS
the rainenator: HAHA RYAN GOT THE SMACKDOWN
the rainenator: i'm still really amused that ryan got beat up
the rainenator: oooh that crazy bastard
the rainenator: so hat woman is on firefly
the rainenator: which you have probably never seen
the rainenator: but it was a pretty good scifi show created by joss whedon, creator of buffy the vampire slayer
the rainenator: just a little bit of trivia for you
the rainenator: this storyline is FUCKING BORING
the rainenator: aww seth/summer
the rainenator: how cute they are
the rainenator: but seth is a horny bastard
the rainenator: heey that thing seth just did
the rainenator: was WEIRD
the rainenator: he was like, eating her soul
the rainenator: ryan looked really old in that shot
the rainenator: matchmaker matchmaker make me a match
the rainenator: find me a find
the rainenator: catch me a catch
the rainenator: wtf is kirsten talking about
the rainenator: sandy cohen knows where the goddamn line is, bitch!
the rainenator: heeey it's that weird new guy
the rainenator: i wish i knew who he was
the rainenator: "marissa and i need totalk"
the rainenator: damn right they do!
the rainenator: ryanis not good with words
the rainenator: he is only good with sexin'
the rainenator: I WANNA BE FOREVER YOUNG
the rainenator: DO YOU REALLY Waanna live forever?
the rainenator: FOREER YOUNG
the rainenator: I WANNA BE FOREVER YOUNG
the rainenator: poker rematch!
the rainenator: =
the rainenator: HOT SEX
the rainenator: haha look at his face, that is so busted
the rainenator: and now marissa's crying, because her life is just SO SO SAD
the rainenator: WAH WAH WAH
the rainenator: well, what a great episode that was
the rainenator: not.
the rainenator: and now i go to bed, because i am so so so so tired
the rainenator: GOODNIGHT LAYNIE

that bitch makes my thursday night.

school is probably the dumbest thing in the entire world.
I'm exhausted.
and I really need me and you and everyone we know to finish downloading, or else I have nothing to do for the rest of the night.
I am in love with the simple life.

yo, bitchez, I'm back.

and I'm tired. and I'm becoming nocturnal. and elan sternberg is my best friend.

it's weird that I have ms. weinblatt for two, because pretty much every day she says some really witty thing during journalism that refers to english, so only I understand it.
and then all the freshman think I'm weird because we (meaning ms. weinblatt and myself) are all bond-ish. it's pretty insane.

my mom read my paper about the gay community and made me take the part about tim brown "burning faggots in his fireplace" out. it was quite frustrating.

tonight I have hebrew school, and it's weird because I actually enjoy it. I hang out with sara and blair and ethan and elan and my rabbi who is fighting the system from within. oh man, jews = ♥

i never sleep anymore, and this is not ok.
i just sit online all of the time. or i watch tv shows on dvd. or illegally downloaded movies. raina got me addicted to bittorrent and fighting the mpaa.

midterms are the pitts.
argh.

I got my iPod video; it's fantastic.
I shall call it moses.
I'm currently converting sin city so that I can watch the best piece of prostitute-empowering cinematic glory wherever I am.
technology continues to amaze me.
also I have pictures on it (mostly stolen from jake) of cuties.
this is the most exciting experience of my life. and that is probably pathetic.

1. Name:
2. Date of birth:
3. Where do you live:
4. What makes you happy:
5. Currently listening/the last thing you listened to:
6. Do you read my journal:
7. If yes, what makes it especially good or bad:
8. An interesting fact about you:
9. Are you in love/do you have a crush at the moment:
10. Favourite place to spend time:
11. Favourite lyric:
12. The best time of the year:

RECOMMEND
1. A film:
2. A book:
3. A band, a song, an album:

PLUS
1. One thing you like about me:
2. Two things you like about yourself:
3. Look at my friends-list and tell what you like about one of our mutual friends:
4. Put this in your journal so that I can tell you what I like about you.

over the past few hours, I have become two things: the most boring human being alive, and officially addicted to the L word. it's the best show ever.

this will be yet ANOTHER weekend that I won't see raina, which is still just as not ok as it was last time.

p.s. is it weird that I miss jakerz a lot?

I'm so un-tired.
and tomorrow is bowling?!
let's see which things on my list I have actually done:
+ hang out with wheatus because I never see her
+ see brokeback mountain
+ make-out with trev
- learn an entire semester of bio
+ go to chestnut hill (well we went to the melting pot, that counts)
+ go to south street
- review grammar notes
+ spend my hanukkah money
+ see rent again
+ have a sleepover with cutie kids (but not raina, because she sucks)
+ do something for new years
+ bake something
- study math perhaps? (I was forced against my will)
+ sleep late
+ buy a vibrator

I am a very accomplished young lady, I think.

yay for hanukkah! tonight was with my mom's side of the family. I got money from most people, but the bubster & one of my aunts gave actual stuff such as...





I'm way excited.

christmas is the best holiday. I had a dream that it was snowing, and everyone on my street (all of my friends lived there for some reason) were playing in the snow and then they came to my house for hot chocolate. it was probably the cutest thing ever. the OC mix 3 is fantastic, it's the chrismakkuh mix and it's so good. even though there's only the 'chris' aspect, no 'makkuh'.

today was the funnest ever.
pollyanna = fantastic lovefest.
then there was an actual lovefest.
and then there was fondue.
pretty soon there will be me throwing up.

I AM SO EXCITED FOR THIS POLLYANNA.
I really hope nick likes his gifties.
my mom and I made spinach artichoke dip for when people come over.
the end.